busy busy busy busy

  1. I have work this weekend
  2. I have to work on my chem assignment
  3. I am shooting Pushover on monday
  4. I need to copy my passport
  5. I need to meet with vice principle to discuss going to turkey business
  6. I am going to a leadership thing on tuesday
  7. I will have to do editing on the bus on my way to the leadership thing
  8. I have a history class thing
  9. I need to finish pushover pictures
  10. I have sacs 
  11. I may be shooting passeneger
  12. I have another meeting to discuss going to Turkey
  13. I might want to shoot Jason Mraz
  14. I might be shooting the xx, birdy and the script (if i get my shot together) 
  15. I AM GOING TO TURKEY

Here’s a list of things i have going on within the next three-four weeks. woah

My age, my dreams, my talents, my life, my friends and myself are all conflicting with one another. Everything doesn’t make sense, I’ve lost all sense of belonging and dreaming and positivity. Lately I can’t win. I just can’t win. It’s all been conflict, upon conflict and all this conflict has become somewhat degrading. I keep wanting to recluse myself from everything and everyone I love, yet I know deep down in my warn down soul that what I want, where I want to be and what I need I must fight for, I must strive for, I must do my best for and I must win. I can win. I will win. And I guess that this is my process of growing that thick skin.